Just Keep Chopping
Updated: Jun 29, 2018
I am a bit of a sucker for astrology I'll admit. I have quite a collection of books that I reference for the pure pleasure of divulging people's personalities. Who knows if it really has any truth but it's fun at least. On the pages that describe me, it says that in order for my sign to find success I can't go flying off the handle bars before "all the wood is chopped". I find this particularly ringing true recently. As I near closer and closer to the big 30th year of my life (I'm 27 mind you) I have this intense need to solidify what the hell I'm doing with my life. Or my career, or what have you. At first I felt like I should just start over before it's too late. Go back to school, finish my degree, and have that prized paper that says "I'm responsible and educated!" Well with two kids, it is not impossible, but it certainly isn't easy.
I have spent almost 12 years of my life sewing. Not always well. But I have been pursuing this for what feels like ever! Shouldn't I be a guru master by now? I ask myself this often. Shouldn't I have a booming business, or at least a name someone has heard of? No. I'm not. Or at least not yet. Sometimes it's tempting to just walk away when you don't feel sufficient to your own expectations. But I realize that in those years, I spent too much time chasing my tail, trying to figure out what I'm doing, and pursuing other goals simultaneously. If I would have just gone in a straight line instead of zig zagging through those years, I'd be so much farther along in my career.
So here is to going in a straight line where I truly crave to be. A designer. Here is to chopping all the wood and not running away before I'm done. Maybe you know these struggles intimately; I hope your axe is sharp my friend. Or maybe you are a headstrong go getter that has never had a doubt about what you are going to do and how you are going to do it. Cheers to you my friend as well. May you inspire the wanderers like me.